I have the intention of joining a photography challenge called One Little Word Captured.
We choose a word that is our word for the year and share our progress in photographs. My word is: Freedom
In order to reach true freedom, there has to be self-acceptance. This is something that I am working on. I have never had a good self-image. I lack confidence and generally would rather be invisible. I'm a loner in many ways and pretty much have to be forced into interacting with people in the flesh.
I have fought against being in front of the camera for years. There are very few pictures of me as an adult because I absolutely do not like to be photographed. I do not want to do it, but I need to do it. I need to accept myself as I am and I need to have pictures of me for my children and their children to come.
Yesterday, I went out with my camera to take photos of myself. I wore my favorite green shirt. But, even with that, I wasn't so sure about taking pictures of myself.
My youngest daughter came to see what I was taking pictures of in our backyard. When she saw that I was shooting myself, she said "SMILE!" But no matter how big I smiled, it wasn't big enough to suit her :) and I still wasn't sure I wanted the camera to capture me anyway.
So, I decided if I can't be beautiful, I can be silly. With my baby girl around, that is very easy to do. :)
By the way, I'm thinking that maybe I shouldn't have done this shoot after all. It apparently was my camera's last time out and that 'last time' would have been so much better spent on roses.
Yes, I know. I have a long way to go on this road to freedom.
Please be sure to visit Jill's site: Life...As I See It to join in the fun!
PS! My youngest daughter assisted and took some of these shots. At this point, neither of us remember which ones I did and which ones she did. She's a mini-me, anyway. :)
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