Day 11 – A Photo of Me Recently

The most recent photos of me were taken shortly after I created this blog and were some of the last photos taken with this camera. It will be awhile before I can have it repaired or replaced.

I do not like being photographed. I hate it, actually. I don't recall a time when I ever liked being in front of the camera, though I have loved being behind it since I was a little girl.

My word for this year is "Freedom". I am trying to break free and be the me that I am meant to be, and that includes getting over this in-front-of-the-camera aversion. My future offspring deserve to have the question "What did my grandma look like?" answered with a picture, no matter how uncomfortable it makes me to be the focus of attention.

I'm working on it.

The rest of the photos from that shoot can be seen here.

One Little Word: Freedom

Week 1 For Me; Week 17 For the Main Project

I have the intention of joining a photography challenge called One Little Word Captured.

We choose a word that is our word for the year and share our progress in photographs. My word is: Freedom

In order to reach true freedom, there has to be self-acceptance. This is something that I am working on. I have never had a good self-image. I lack confidence and generally would rather be invisible. I'm a loner in many ways and pretty much have to be forced into interacting with people in the flesh.

I have fought against being in front of the camera for years. There are very few pictures of me as an adult because I absolutely do not like to be photographed. I do not want to do it, but I need to do it. I need to accept myself as I am and I need to have pictures of me for my children and their children to come.

Yesterday, I went out with my camera to take photos of myself. I wore my favorite green shirt. But, even with that, I wasn't so sure about taking pictures of myself.

My youngest daughter came to see what I was taking pictures of in our backyard. When she saw that I was shooting myself, she said "SMILE!" But no matter how big I smiled, it wasn't big enough to suit her :) and I still wasn't sure I wanted the camera to capture me anyway.

So, I decided if I can't be beautiful, I can be silly. With my baby girl around, that is very easy to do. :)

By the way, I'm thinking that maybe I shouldn't have done this shoot after all. It apparently was my camera's last time out and that 'last time' would have been so much better spent on roses.

Yes, I know. I have a long way to go on this road to freedom.

Please be sure to visit Jill's site: Life...As I See It to join in the fun!

PS! My youngest daughter assisted and took some of these shots. At this point, neither of us remember which ones I did and which ones she did. She's a mini-me, anyway. :)