Important Notice!!!

Praise the Lord! After 6 weeks or so of dealing with medical facilities, we are finally back in our own home. David's foot is looking much, much better. There are still a few hurdles to cross, but he'll make it.

Please bear with us as we get adjusted to being home again and get back in the swing of blogging again.

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10 April 2011

Day Fifty-Eight: Blind Grief and Angry Good-byes

This entry was taken from one of my personal journals, written 30 June 2010, one month after the day that I came close to meeting my Maker:

Grief, like love, is blind. In the grips of our own grief, we can't fully see the pain of another or the pain we may be causing another. As with love, we must give the other person the benefit of the doubt and hope that the added pain is unintentional.

Grief works in both directions. The people that will be left behind grieve, sure, but the person that knows that they are dying and leaving them behind grieves as well. This can cause tense moments, moments of poor judgment, moments of downright anger and resentment…from both sides.

One of the self-destruct modes of my life has been to have leavings on a bad note…it seems easier perhaps, in a grief-filled mind, to deal with the loss when anger is involved than to lose them, knowing they aren’t coming back, and miss them so much. We don’t miss what we can’t stand.

It is a false economy of sorts. We still love the person; we still want to be with them. We are angry and hurt by the separation and we miss them terribly. We may be able to change our masks on a dime, but the heart is an entirely different matter.

When you are faced with a loss, how do you cope with it? Do you push the person further away to seemingly make the loss easier to bear? Does it really work?

58. I am thankful for that delayed "good-bye". I am sorry that I wasn't there to tell Grandma and Granny "good-bye", but very thankful for the time that I had with them. I am thankful for those that listen to my middle of life ramblings and still love me, even though they think I am insane (in reality or in jest, I am not sure!). I am thankful for the laughter that is returning to our home.

One Thousand Gifts: A Dare to Live Fully Right Where You Are

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  1. Hey Suz, I'm stalking you, from Red's "Saturday Stalker"... what an inspiring idea, 1000 gifts.
    I have come across Ann Voskamp before; I think she must be one inspirational lady.
    I hope #59 goes well for you x

  2. Hi Simone,

    Thanks for stalking me. :)

    Yes, Ann is a very inspirational lady. She has been through so much throughout her life and is finding the grace to be thankful in all things, good and bad. In the doing of it, she has shown me how to be more thankful. Although I am struggling at the moment, overall, it has brought so much peace to my life.

    Thank you for stopping by and commenting. I have started following two of your blogs. I hope that you have a wonderful day!


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